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Day 17: “Psychics and Soulmates”

Posted in Uncategorized with tags , , , on May 10, 2011 by Veronica Graham

A shoot I was scheduled to work on had been cancelled due to an accident at the location and I needed to get out of the house on my suddenly free day, and I headed down to meet Kimmie at a coffee-shop in Arlington.  After the sun went down, Kimmie and I ditched our teas and sniffed the air for a local bar for a couple glasses of wine, on the way, we saw a small house that said, “House of Tarot.”  We both looked at each other and decided to go in and the psychic agreed to read us for a discounted rate- so we stayed.

The last psychic reading that Kimmie and I went to together was 4 years ago from a young woman of Eastern European descent, very pretty, with short dark hair.  She didn’t pull out any cards or bones or anything, but DID have a crystal ball… I was intrigued, Kimmie was skeptical.

At the time Kimmie was head over heels for an Irish DJ named Miller.  She had met him at a bus stop one morning when we were walking together and was hooked upon meeting him.  They weren’t involved romantically for about year, because Kimmie couldn’t get the TEE HEE HEEs out of her system enough to actually get close to the guy.  For the year before they were involved, Kimmie would talk about Miller nonstop, annoyingly nonstop, like 13-year-old-giddy-girl annoying.

At the same time I was involved with an Irish hunk myself– yep, my now manager ex- now married!  The reading 4 years ago focused more on love for me, and more on career for Kimmie.  Looking back, this seems about right.

Kimmie’s Reading 4 Years Ago:

*She would be very successful in a career in the arts.  (Happened- both as a rising starlet and at her day job)

*Has a third eye (anyone that knows her, know this)

*Was engaged once (WHAT???!!!  but yes, this was true.)

*Her mother passed away when she was younger (true and I almost fell off my cushion when I heard that.)

My Reading 4 Years Ago:

*The guy I was involved with would be successful in his business venture (The Irish Married Hunk helped open the bar I now work for)

*I have many demons (anyone that knows me, knows this)

*”Do not mistake Lust for Love.”  (I obviously ignored this one… a few months later I met Iago)

*I would be married one day (Hahahahha!!!…hasn’t happened yet)

This reading today focused quite a bit on the “Soulmates”…  Kimmie went first because I was too busy shaking with nerves… What would she say?  Was I going to fail soon?  Would I break my vow?  What’s going to happen???  Am I going to Die????

Kimmie’s Reading Today:

*She’s having problems sleeping (hmmm.. I thought this was interesting!  Kimmie rolled her eyes… of course)

*Needed to leave the area to pursue her passions (agreed)

*Bad luck with love (eh… I guess this is true- she’s met amazing men, but obstacles have kept them apart– JUST like the psychic said!!!)

*She knows her soulmate, but there are things preventing her from seeing who it is (probably her self absorb nature.. oh, I mean, focused nature.  FOCUSED, yes.)

My Reading Today:

*I’ve been with many men (Really?  Well, duh.. but really, do I have the scarlet letter branded on me??)

*I’ll be successful in my career ventures (yay!)

*I also know my soulmate, but because I’ve been with so many men, I can’t see who it is. (tell me something I don’t know)

*That I work hard, but not hard enough at the thing I love… that I have trouble following through with things (anything, really)

*Needed to see my mother more often, even though we don’t get along (yes, she said this)

*Also, I needed to reconnect with someone that’s been on my mind lately…

On the psychic scale, Kimmie gave her a 5 out of 10 (always the skeptic), and I gave her a 7 out of 10 (always the believer)… she wasn’t as convincing as the woman we saw 4 years ago, but she did make some good points for me to think about.

One point that stuck with me was my soulmate… I have NO clue who it could be, but I have had a certain someone on my mind lately- since, well, since I’ve met him in 2006.  He was the only guy I had the opportunity to sleep with but turned down, because I wanted his respect and I also lost contact with him shortly after I turned down an invitation to go skiing with him at Park City because I needed to go to class and finish my Associates Degree.  Whoopdeefuckindo!

Kimmie has a saying she tells me when I bring him up, “Maybe if you can’t get him out of your mind, it’s because he’s supposed to be there.”  There is a hopeless romantic in this girl afterall!  

I asked Kimmie if she still wondered about Miller and she waved her hand back like she does and said, “It’s a thing of the past, it’s gone now.”

“Really??!!” I’ll press the issue.

“Yes,” she says matter-of-factly.  “I can feel it.”

Am I holding on to this guy or will I be able to “feel it” when it’s truly over?  Will something in the stars shift when we’re no longer meant to be?  Or is it just the fact that I’m human holding onto something because I can’t have it?  I remember Kimmie’s first meeting with Miller and how they kept running into each other, almost like they were supposed to be and I’m afraid that something like that can just go away. 

This guy that I can’t seem shake was a 24 hour adventure that began when the heavens opened up with rain and flood and we were both stranded together, forced (happily!) to get to know each other.  The two of us instantly clicked and hardly slept a wink. We kept in touch for a long while until a last email that wasn’t different from the rest except that there were no others after it.  Damn, it’s hard not to think of him when it starts to rain…  

Here’s to 349 Days, Veronica Graham, “For all the sad words that tongue and pen, the saddest are these, ‘What might have been.'” -JGW